Thursday, March 1, 2012

Lyrics as Poetry: Heal Over by KT Tunstall

If I were doing this for an English class I might have to look up information on the writer's life and take some kind of look into what they were saying with these words. I'm so glad I'm not in an English class anymore. And let's be honest, we love music and poetry not because it shows us a piece of someone else's life, but because it reflects a portion of our own.

This one is particularly relevant to how I feel right now. I can imagine the girl I love singing this to me (and she would, too). She's wiped away my tears a number of times already.

Right now I am in the mourning process, the stages of grief. This happens when a loved-one dies. Or when a big change happens in your life like the one happening in mine right now. It happens at different stages of life--like when someone tells you for the first time that Santa isn't real, or when your best friend moves to another state, or when your mom gets re-married, or when your best friend gets married AND moves to a different state.

Some of these processes are quick, and you are healed over before you have the chance to even realize you had been in mourning. Most of the time we don't notice we're grieving. Maybe because it's such a prevailing aspect of life. We are always changing; always losing and gaining; hurting and healing; always moving on and filling in the gaps.

Anyway, here's why I think this song is poetry:
it has rythm and rhyme and a subtle story
it has a paradox that makes so much sense to me now like it never did before recently. "Don't hold on, but don't let go." Right now I'm in the process of letting go of a huge HUGE part of my life. In trying to let go I grabbed onto another, very BEAUTIFUL part and held tight with the expectation that I would find a replacement for what I'm losing. I can't completely let go of life aspect HUGE, because it will always be there no matter what. I just can't hold on to it anymore. But, more importantly, this life aspect BEAUTIFUL isn't something I'm willing to let go of, ever. I just can't hold on. When we hold so tightly to something, it can become obsession--it can become destructive. I've got to trust myself rather than wanting to believe HUGE or hoping BEAUTIFUL will give me direction. Healing takes time, but it also takes trust.

Now listen to the song already. And read the words.



"Heal Over"
It isn't very difficult to see why
You are the way you are
Doesn't take a genius to realise
That sometimes life is hard
It's gonna take time
But you'll just have to wait
You're gonna be fine
But in the meantime

Chorus:
Come over here lady
Let me wipe your tears away
Come a little nearer baby
Coz you'll heal over
Heal over
Heal over someday

And I don't wanna hear you tell yourself
That these feelings are in the past
You know it doesn't mean they're off the shelf
Because pain is built to last
Everybody sails alone
But we can travel side by side
Even if you fail
You know that no one really minds
Come over here lady

Don't hold on but don't let go
I know it's so hard
You've got to try to trust yourself
I know it's so hard, so hard

Chorus

4 comments:

  1. Sad and beautiful, like life :) Thanks for sharing!

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  2. I love you, Tiffany! I miss you and hope I can see you again sometime before I leave the area.

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    1. When are you leaving???
      I'll be in provo the 21-23 this month...let's try to see each other. And Everett :)

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